Today is your Birthday » Ichabod

Happy 2nd Birthday, Ichabod!!! You make a great big brother to Lux, June, Ferfers, and Chico (and a good cousin to Hans and Dolb, too.). Your family loves you very much. I honestly can't imagine my life without you.. May this year be filled with even more love, pets, and Yogies!

» Mom

My camera and I

 

While going through some old SD cards, I found some interesting photos that sparked some inspiration. Now first of all, I don't even believe I took these photos, judging from the reflection in these photos. It must have been Corpsey using my old Vivitar camera. Though, a lot of the images and concepts seems so familiar, but I don't really know. I can't place what year this would be. I need to inquire with Corpsey about that and see what year it was that she got her hearse, Gristle. I definitely know that I had Nixon the Nikon at the time. For some reason, on my computer it is saying 2003 but that is terribly wrong. I just thought they were some very interesting angles and perspectives. When I came across them, it brought back kind of warm fuzzy memories. Yeah, I know, they're pictures of graves and whatnot, but that's where I spent a lot of time getting to know a lot of my cameras actually. Plus, today I had a very nice, motivating conversation with my photographer friend, Caroline. She spoke to me about making the leap to do photography full time and we exchanged some thoughts on just generally doing what you love and how to balance it all and how to know if it's worth it. I would say photography is my passion. Yes, maybe even my dream. I'm still saying.. photographer for the Rolling Stone. Far fetched, I know, but that's the fun part about having dreams. I thought about my relationship with my cameras over the last decade, but most recently my Nikon's. My camera is sometimes like a person to me. We have a love hate relationship sometimes. It can be totally frustrating, but definitely in all the right ways. I don't say this often, but I want to learn. I want to have knowledge about my camera. I want to be one of those dorky people who can call out ISO and aperture and F-Stops by looking at any lighting or situation. I think I'd be happy. At the same time, I don't want to make my love become a chore. I don't want to burn out. I don't want to overdo it. I guess when it comes down to it, you will know when you are ready to take the leap, to give up everything and pursue your passions. Maybe you will know. Maybe you wont, I guess, but to honest, I was thinking, if I never become whatever you consider professional and if I never make money off of it and if my only satisfaction are my own prints hanging on my own walls of my little apartment.. I'm perfectly fine with that. I'm totally okay with the fact that I might always still be practicing and experimenting and never go any further. I do believe my camera will always be a very special thing in my life, more so than the average person. I don't know what the means or what it will become but I know it makes me happy. I know. It feels good to say that with confidence because there's really not much in life I am very sure of. Thinking, discussing, and just rambling on about it just fuel the fire. As do coming across old photos and seeing the potential and the growth and wondering what the future holds for my camera and I.

» Linds

Mother's Day » 2012

So many sweet words about Mother's Day floating around Blogland already. What can I say that hasn't been said?

Well, first and foremost, just.... Happy Mother's Day.

I'm very thankful to have such a sweet, caring mother. She's done such a wonderful job raising me into the person I am and I couldn't thank her enough for everything she has taught me and everything she does for me. She's more than my mother, she's my best friend. My very, very best irreplaceable friend. I look forward to hearing her voice every day, even if it is just through the telephone. I've heard her tell me stories about her talking to her own mother on the phone, daily, while doing everyday activities like washing the dishes, and I can see how much she misses her and how she'd give anything to hear her voice again. With that being said, I'm going to cherish these times with every bit of my being because you never know when it will be gone. I love her beyond words. More than all the stars in the sky. More than all the dirt in the world. More than all the grains of sand on the beach. :)

 I feel like Mother's Day is even more than just that. Anyone who cares for others just like they are their own deserves a special pat on the back today, as well. I guess I say this because I work with kids on a daily basis and so many of them, sadly, don't even have mother figures in their own life. I know I hate my job, basically, most days, but I also know I'm an important caring adult in their life and there may, unfortunately, be very few of them in their lifetimes. I know I need to slow down every day and consider my impact on them because not all of us are so lucky.

If you read my blog, you know the majority of my posts are about my ferrets and you know that my pets are my world so I can't forget to mention a Happy Mother's Day to all the pet mom's. These little critters are like children of my own. My days revolve around them. As much responsibly as it is and as much as I just want to not care some days, that's an impossible thought. I'm blessed to have each and every one of these creatures in my life. They do love me and the depend on me. They know I'm there to take care of them and keep the safe and they are right. I'd do anything in my power and more to do so. I imagine this is much the same feeling a mother would have to their own children. Yes, it's an animal, but the bond is still there and still incredibly strong. You can't tell me otherwise. I can't begin to picture my life without them and I wouldn't want to.

So if your biggest priority in life is the happiness and health of some other living being... this day is for you. Enjoy it and know that you're loved and appreciated ever second of every day.

» Linds

Congratulations

It's been kind of a low key and personal but I, myself, would like to personally say congratulations to Kelsey and Will on getting married. Kelsey has been my inseparable best friend for over 5 years and I've known Will for quite some time since he's been in her life. I consider these two to be my friends and might I add, I'm very blessed to say so. I wish nothing but love and happiness to these two wherever their paths lead them! Please know how much you mean to me and I will always be here if needed. Love you guys!

xo, Linds